Author Archives: Diane Vich

    Categories accomplishment, kids, Mommy, motivation, positivity

    The Baseball Shuffle…

    The Baseball Shuffle took my by surprise. Little did I know that this little trip would change my outlook completely. As a mom of active boys, sports is an essential part of life. But each child is unique in their interests and hobbies. My oldest, Gabriel has always loved baseball since little league. The sport has become a bigger part of our lives over the past few years. This year things shifted even more as he ventured to a new school with hope of joining the school baseball team. I could see the smile in his face and the glow in his eyes when he made it onto the Belen baseball team. I watched the games but I never really understood the game very well nor did it truly grasp my attention. The games were long and a little boring to be honest.

    This past week in Cooperstown the universe shifted and boom I was hooked on baseball. I’m not sure if it was finally getting to Cooperstown for the tournament or seeing him play. Gabriel had been dreaming of this for almost a year. Or maybe it was visiting the Baseball Hall of Fame. The movie about the History of Baseball definitely made me cry. And I wasn’t the only teary eyed person in the room. I say person because it was emotional for men too. Baseball is America’s favorite pastime. It united America and brought a sense of hope to the masses. It was amazing the see the smiles and sense of awe in all the boys eyes as they walked through the museum. I was awestruck by Babe Ruth’s memorabilia and other baseball icons. And remember, I really didn’t show much interest in baseball until this trip. It doesn’t really matter how my mind shifted but it did.

    Gabriel, Frankie and Christian were finally at Cooperstown. The smiles on their faces were priceless. I could see Gabriel’s dreams were at his fingertips. He was living his 12 year old dream. Something he had hoped and wished for but wasn’t sure it would manifest. Things worked out in the end and he joined his old baseball team Hardball to participate in the tournament. And he even invited a few friends from Belen too. They were all so excited to spend a week hanging with their friends and playing baseball. We were all ecstatic to watch them play. It was amazing to see how ALL the boys had improved over the past year. But the 3 peas brought a unique smile to our faces and glow in our hearts. Gabriel, Frankie and Christian had developed a unique bond over the past year. And they were ready to play BALL.

    It was a rainy week in Cooperstown Allstar Village. And games were cancelled so we headed to the Hall of Fame. I couldn’t help but smile when I looked at my son’s face hanging out with his team or playing baseball. All the parents were anxious when their kid was up to bat or catch the baseball. I had never really been paying such close attention to a game but his week was intense. I had seen my son work so hard over this past year. Playing baseball 4 to 5 times a week. Taking hitting and pitching lessons. Countless hours of working his butt off and playing for a team that consistently lost. It must have been the most frustrating thing for him and the other peas in the pod (Frankie and Christian). It was frustrating for all of us to watch. Maybe that was part of the detachment I had. Or maybe it was that the games dragged on until eternity. But either way all of us were frustrated and this tournament began to shift it all. My son had a goal and it was Cooperstown. He has more goals like playing on the 7th grade team at his Belen. And Cooperstown is like the Holy grail of baseball for an 11 or 12 year old baseball loving boy. If your child plays baseball or you love the sport then you completely understand. My son and husband love the sport. My little one (Lucas) has other sports dreams; baseball wasn’t his cup of tea. We knew that this week was our one and only chance at participating in Cooperstown. Gabriel is almost 13 and this was his last shot.

    I’m not sure why Baseball hadn’t caught my attention until Cooperstown. For some reason until this very surreal moment in time I hadn’t loved baseball. I wonder? Does my father love baseball? Of course he does, he talks about it all the time with Gabriel and Robert. But I can’t remember, Did he watch baseball? Did we watch it together? Was it a guy only tradition or were girls there too? I wish I knew. I guess I need to ask him. I’ll figure it out soon. But let’s get back to Cooperstown. Our entire family and small circle of friends were all looking forward to this tournament since early this year. The boys have been practicing like crazy to get to this tournament. They were a trio of buddies excited to visit Cooperstown together. They were like 3 peas in a pod. We hung out together every chance we got and this little adventure would bring us all closer together than ever before. Little did I know that Baseball was going to be my new favorite sport. The pressure was on for all of us. The kids and the parents felt the pressure. Each game was nerve racking and each parent had their own way of dealing with the stress. We also all had our own funny superstitious tricks up our sleeves. Some parents wouldn’t look at their kid when they were up to bat. To nervous to see it all unfold. But I couldn’t keep my eyes off of him. Gabriel had worked so hard this year. He had made MVP on his school team, which he brushed off as no big deal but it is a huge deal. He had improved his pitching, catching and hitting so much since last year. For some reason he was nervous in Cooperstown and he wasn’t using his own bat. It was frustrating but you can’t push a pre-teen boy. You just have to let them try it out and come up with the decision on their own. Oh boy did I want to tell him something but he was frustrated enough on his own. I get it because I used to be the same way, I didn’t believe in myself and had to work through it on my own. So we patiently waited watching him play game after game with his frustration increasing.

    Then one day, Wednesday June 19th everything shifted for him. I was so nervous that I couldn’t sit. I was literally pacing back and forth as I watched the game unfold. He finally grabbed his own bat and I jumped and screamed like a school girl. He hit his first home run in Field #33. It didn’t stop there. He went on to have a Grand Slam in field #33. I jumped and screamed again. All the parents were so excited. They had been waiting for Gabriel to hit it out of the park. He was selected by his coach for the Home Run derby in the beginning of the tournament (Sunday) but for some reason he didn’t use his bat until Wednesday. I’m not sure what shifted but we all had our superstitions and little tricks. Before that game I prayed and sent him some blessings. I even blessed his gatorade before I handed it to him. I was wearing all Blue (Baseball shirt, yoga pants, undies and all). Even the face of my watch mysteriously changed to blue on its own. My shirt said, “There’s no crying in Baseball.” We honestly don’t know what shifted on that Wednesday but I do know that Wednesday’s have been a big transition day for me over the past few months. So, it could have been Wednesday, the clothes, the blessings or any other variable. The fact is that it was the most exhilarating experience to see MY son hit a baseball out of the park. To hear that ball hit the bat perfectly and zoom out of the park was amazing. I had jumped and screamed for Christian too but this was my boy and I screamed like crazy. He had finally fulfilled his dream and hit a home run in Cooperstown. He ended up hitting 3 home runs that day. We couldn’t be any prouder of him. He was so happy and the boys were all jumping up too. He did it. He finally fulfilled his dream and were were all ecstatic. Let’s just say Baseball has a new place in my heart. I never though the game could excite me so much, that I would scream at the top of my lungs and jump like a kid but I did. Cooperstown was an amazing experience for all of us. It was exhausting, stressful and exhilarating all at once. We enjoyed the bonding experience to the fullest and I’m thankful that Gabriel achieved his dream.

    P.S. One funny thing that happened in Cooperstown that any mommy can understand. LMAO. Embarrassing but true. When Christian got his first home run, I peed a little. LMAO. I screamed and jumped so much that a little pee came out. It happens to all of us at one point or another. I haven’t experienced that in a long time. I workout my pelvic floor often but I had been holding it in too long and oopsie happened.

    Categories accomplishment, Anxiety, Chronic Pain, Emotional pain, flare up, hope, motivation, pain, Physical Pain

    Let go and Be Free!!!

    Learning your personal stress triggers and fears is a huge part of emotional health and wellness. It is impossible to change the world around us but we can change the way we react to it. I’ve learned a lot about myself over this past year. Learning the way I react to criticism, comments and conversations with others wasn’t easy but it is an essential part of emotional health. Every single one of us has pre-established beliefs, rules and behavior patterns in our subconscious mind. The healing comes into play when we truly understand our own beliefs, rules and patterns. We can only change our responses and actions towards the events life sends our way. We all face challenges and obstacles in our daily lives that can impact our health and happiness. Our reactions to these obstacles and challenges impact our bodies in exponential ways. Over the years, keeping my true emotions trapped inside lead to an exponential changes in my body resulting in chronic illness and disease. I was a person that held in all my emotions, fears, worry and stress. I didn’t share them with anyone much less myself. I kept everything so bottled up and tight that my health began to fail more and more with each year that passed. These high stress levels impact our bodies cell by cell that accumulates over time developing illness and disease. Emotional intelligence is not something we are born with or learn in school. The more we experience stress and keep it bottled up inside the worse our emotional and physical health gets. I’ve learned that no one can hurt you more than you hurt yourself. We hurt ourselves everyday repetitively and harshly. We repeat the same hurtful and harmful statements to ourselves everyday. It’s a vicious cycle that creates a build up of emotional stress in our bodies. This emotional pile accumulates inside our tissues, organs and cells and eventually develops into symptoms, illness and disease.

    My health issues started as a child with digestive issues, reflux, and IBS. I began bottling up my emotions and hiding my voice from the world as a child. I lost my creative side completely. The part of me that could write poems and paint, simply went to sleep when my voice went silent. The symptoms built up more and more each year until my health crisis in 2013. I reached a point in my life that any more stress was simply overwhelming and my body was ready to give up. It was evident in my emotional and physical health that something had to change. I reached my breaking point where my body just couldn’t take any more stress. I was getting my MSN degree, working in the PEDS ED and raising to young boys. My husband’s work schedule had him traveling all the time which added extra stress on my already full plate. At this point my hair was falling constantly, panic attacks were the norm and food was simply not digesting. I reached a point where water and saltine crackers were causing me stomach distress, nausea and pain. After extensive tests and hospitalization the truth was clear. My body was tearing itself down little by little. My stomach lining was eroding and ulcers were soon to develop in my stomach and intestines. The poor digestion and lack of nutrient absorption was impacting my skin, body and hair. The anxiety was causing panic and my chronic pain was at its peak. I was taking 13+ prescriptions and felt absolutely awful. My right arm and leg were numb and the pain was constantly severe. The doctor basically told me either you change your lifestyle or you are going to die. It was a scary truth that I had to face as a 36 year old young mom. The decision to place my health on my priority list was not easy. I had spent my entire life helping everyone else around me. Since childhood I had placed the feelings of everyone around me before my own. The decision I made was for me but even more for my children and husband. After all my health impacted my children the most good or bad. If I kept on that path my boys (Gabriel 7 and Lucas 3) would face a life without a loving and supportive mom to guide their way. Even typing that today brings tears to my eyes. I can imagine their beautiful little faces and lives impacted by my own lack of self-love. Over these 6 roller coaster years, I found my way back to my emotional and physical health. But the hardest part was this last year. The emotional journey to unlock the feelings and beliefs that had impacted my health over these 41 years. Now as a 41 year old mom of 2, I see the power in emotional health and wellness. I see the impact our emotions have on our bodies and that we harm ourselves more than anyone else can. We fail to forgive ourselves for our mistakes, behaviors and actions. We criticize ourselves more every single day about any little insecurity. Some of the criticisms I realize now runs really deep and impacts your body. I learned a month ago that I actually was angry with myself about the birth of my children. I was angry at myself for not having a vaginal birth. It was a decision that had to be made because my oldest was too big and likely would have been stuck in the birth canal. I didn’t realize the impact my anger had on my body until 12.5 years later. I realize inside my body, inside my yoni, I was blaming myself for not being good enough. I blamed myself and thought I wasn’t a good mom because of this little bump in the road. This little obstacle that gave me a precious gift a son that I love with all my heart. It just goes to show that you have no idea what your subconscious is hiding and the damage it can be causing in your body.
    Low self-esteem and self-doubt plagued my mind throughout my life. When I was heavier, I used to say horrible things to myself when I looked in the mirror. “Yuck look at that cellulite. Omg look at that belly bump, you are so fat.” I would look at myself and not see the beautiful woman everyone else saw. I didn’t think I was beautiful, I had little self-esteem, I didn’t show myself much self-love. This continued for most of my life until 2013 when started making myself the priority. I started eating right and exercising. I began to show myself more kindness as my body started to feel better and the pain began to leave my body. I began loving the beautiful girl in the mirror. I started to see my body was changing, shedding weight, looking less bloated and a real smile started to emerge. It wasn’t the fake smile I had been hiding behind for so long. I had been hiding my physical pain from the world a long time. Finally, when that pain was gone and I connected with the truth behind it my true smile emerged. It’s a smile filled with self-love and appreciation for everything I had been through, everything I had learned and the new me emerged.

    This journey of emotional healing and connecting with my intuition wasn’t easy. It takes dedication and self-love to truly get to the root cause. Learning that I had been keeping emotions trapped inside my body gave me the power to release them. I was holding a multitude of emotions. I had been a worrier all my life. I worried that I didn’t do things well, that I wasn’t good enough, that I wasn’t beautiful, that I wasn’t loved, etc. I was holding many other emotions too. The thing I realized through hypnosis was that my subconscious not only had the power to hurt me but it had the power to heal. There are so many emotions we hold inside us. These emotions don’t serve us to keep them trapped inside. The more we allow them to build up inside our bodies the more symptoms arise. It’s very interesting to tap into your intuition and allow your body to give you the answers. When you connect with yourself through self-love and nurture your mind, body and soul everything unfolds. You become aware of the immediate tension that arises in your shoulders, when your feeling overwhelmed. You notices the knot erupting in your neck while you talk to a friend that tells you something upsetting. You feel the pressure in your chest when someone shares a truly emotional truth they experienced. You can actually close your eyes, scan your body, identify a sore spot and know exactly why it is tender. This is not pain or soreness from exercise or overuse of a muscle. This is emotional pain that you have absorbed inside your body. Sometimes the pain isn’t even your own. It sounds absolutely crazy, I know but I have learned that as an empath, I can actually absorb the physical and emotional pain of others. My intuition tells me exactly why the pain is there and only then am I able to release it. It’s essential to bring out the subconscious triggers from hiding into your conscious mind. You need to feel the emotions in the moment in order to Let it go!!! You need to feel the pain, feel the symptoms, cry if you need too, sit with it and feel it. Sometimes you need to work a little harder to get it out of your muscles and tissues. The power of naturally releasing pain comes into action when you combine the subconscious mind, the conscious mind and the physical body. I have learned my body so well that I can actually release physical pain, feel the fluids shift inside my body and sense the emotions change with it. Working with your body in this deep way connecting mind, body and soul empowers you to tackle your biggest trauma, your worst heartbreak and even your greatest fears. Understanding your bodies natural healing powers enables you to accomplish things you never dreamed. Letting go of the past that created turmoil inside your body creates a positivity that radiates out of you. Letting go of every emotion that no longer serves you sets you free. Let go, live your life, be free, be powerful, be abundant, be YOU!! ou can be the ultimate version of yourself, I believe in YOU!!!

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    I love myself…

    I love myself more and more each day. The truth is I didn’t love myself in the same way before. I can tell you achieving this wasn’t easy. If you want something and you work for it than you can achieve anything. This past year was a journey. I faced tons of obstacles and challenges but worked through them. Each obstacle and challenge was an opportunity to learn and grow. I was reconnecting with myself in a way I never thought possible before. I was reconnecting with my personal intuition, learning my dreams, learning my purpose and my path in life. You see I had lived my life hiding my truth from myself and from the world. I realize now that I am not the only one that is hiding. We all are hiding from something. We might feel ashamed, guilty, fearful, sad, scared or… Your truth is yours to discover but the power is in seeking out a little help and guidance to climb the mountain. I did a lot of hard things over this past year to learn my truth and purpose in this world. I wouldn’t have made it here without the support of my new circle of girlfriends that have empowered me to become everything they saw in me. You see they saw a strong, powerful, intelligent, kind, caring, loving and creative women. But the power in finding yourself is that you need to live it, experience it, own it, cherish it and accomplish it. If you don’t go through the process for yourself than you can’t achieve your dreams and become your ultimate person. The road might be a little bumpy but nothing that is worth living for is ever easy. Finishing high school and living through the tough teenage struggles isn’t easy but absolutely worth it. Getting married and building a life with someone isn’t easy but absolutely worth it. Having a baby and raising a child isn’t easy but absolutely worth it.

    So I ask you this. Are you worth it? Are you worth the hard work, dedication and focus to find your path? YES you are. Do you deserve to be loved, cherished and appreciated? Absolutely yes. We all deserve that. We all deserve to be loved cherished and appreciated but the truth is to accomplish this you need to start within yourself. You need to see the truth others see in you. You need to feel the love in your heart. You need to appreciate and be grateful for every obstacle and challenge you have faced. You need to work for what you deserve because no one else can do it for you. It would be great to have a magic dust that would make your life everything you dream but nothing is that easy. I learned in my journey that I was surrounded by men and women that were living the same truth. We were not born with emotional intelligence, that is something you have to learn, practice and develop. We are born into a world filled with obstacles and challenges. These challenges can make you or break you. Most of the time they break you more and more each day until you are overwhelmed. Feeling overwhelmed and unloved by yourself wrecks havoc on your life. Its a vicious cycle of challenges but there is power in finding your path to self-love. Taking the time to learn from your mistakes and become a better version of yourself paves the way to your abundance.

    I worked through this over the past 9 months and paved a beautiful walkway to my tree of abundance and prosperity. Its a brick road with twists and turns; ups and downs; joy and sadness; forwards and backwards. The entire journey was worth it. Focusing your life purpose on helping others inevitably helps you heal yourself in the process. Learning my own little lies that held me back for 40 years brought me to this moment in time. The moment when I realized that everyone has these little lies in the back of their mind. These little lies that stop them in their tracks. These little lies that make them think they aren’t good enough, smart enough and powerful enough. But these are all lies in your subconscious. You absolutely positively are good enough. You just need to work on transforming your beliefs to create the abundance and prosperity you desire. So, I ask you now. The choice is yours to make. Are you worth it? Do you deserve it? Do you want it? Are you ready?

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    I deserve to be forgiven

    Today, I recorded a hypnosis guided meditation. It resonated deep in my soul because I have connected with a multitude of people over the past year and noticed a pattern of self-punishment. The person that harms us the most is ourself. We hold ourselves to such impossible standards and never forgive ourselves for our mistakes. It is a harmful process that tears us down to pieces day by day. We don’t notice the harm until things start to fall apart and overwhelm hits us. And even then we don’t realize our biggest problem is our lack of self-love. We all make mistakes. It is part of being human. It is how we learn and grow. We make mistakes and adapt our lives to become better versions of ourselves. But there is one fact we never take into account. In our process of evolution, we miss some very crucial steps in our development of an abundant and prosperous life. This is what we fail to do for ourselves:

    Have we let the past mistakes go?

    Have we truly healed ourselves and learned from our mistakes?

    Have you forgiven ourselves for the mistake?

    Do you replay that moment in your mind?

    Do you use any of these harmful words towards yourself? (undesirable, unworthy, not good enough, ugly, unattractive…) Those are only a few but believe it or not, I felt that way for most of my life. I bet many of you do too.

    You might think you forgave yourself but think a little closer. Have you ever hurt someone you love? Even if that person forgave you for what you did. Did you forgive yourself? Chances are you didn’t. Do you replay this mistake in your head over and over putting yourself down? Do you keep making the same mistake over and over? Do you feel like life never changes for the better?

    This is what I learned in my spiritual journey since August 2018. If we continue to treat ourselves with such hate and disrespect our lives aren’t able to transform. Think of transformation in a different form that is easy to understand. A butterfly has a very long growth process to support and nurture her evolution. It is all about self-care and self-love. The mommy butterfly lays her eggs on the perfect tree for her babies to grown. The larvae hatch and life has placed them in the perfect spot to flourish. The caterpillar is born into the world like a tiny spec of dust in a garden of abundance. She sits on a leaf and begins to eat. She nurtures herself every day by eating the perfect food for her body. She continues to grow bigger and bigger. She eats this perfect food and grows every day. She grows bigger and stronger everyday. When she is feeling perfectly fool and abundant she begins to weave her cocoon. It is an intricate and delicate process that she needs to do for herself. No other caterpillar can help her. She needs to travel this path of evolution for herself. She weaves the perfect little cocoon in the perfect spot for her transformation to continue and prosperity to emerge. This process isn’t very long for the butterfly. If she does everything right, loves herself and feeds herself the right food she will emerge in 14 days. She will be a new and beautiful creature that flies freely in the wind. When she emerges she is still delicate and weak. But as her wings dry and harden she finishes her transformation. She flies away to find some beautiful flowers to spread her love and create new life.

    Now think what would happen if the butterfly allowed her self-sabotage tendencies to take over her life. She might not eat enough food to maker her strong. She picks a location to maker her cocoon that is not safe and brings her harm. She leaves a tiny hole in her cocoon. The sad truth is this poor little caterpillar will never emerge as a beautiful butterfly. She will die and decompose right there were she built her cocoon. That is exactly what we do to ourselves, everyday we put these judgements on ourselves. We tear down our self-love, break our self-esteem and self- loathing. We continue this assault on ourselves day after day. This assault accumulated in our body and begins to show itself in our physical body. We break ourselves down until we become overwhelmed with pain, grief, fear, worry, sadness, disgust… It is a vicious cycle but it can be transformed.

    It is time to change the pattern. Its not for me. You need to do this for yourself. This journey is all your own. It is about feeding your mind and body everything it deserves. It involves transforming those negative thoughts into positive affirmations. It is about allowing these positive statements to resonate in your life. It is about letting go of those mistakes and forgiving yourself. It is about changing the story. No one can change to story for you. No one can stop you from connecting with people that harm you and bring you down. No one can stop you from eating foods that hurt your body. No one can make you exercise. No one can make you meditate. No one can make you do anything. And the worst part is No one can make it work and create your abundance but yourself.

    I had to learn this all the hard way. It was a year of vicious cycles and ups and downs. Self-sabotage, worry and fear resonated my life in the down times. I finally realized it and decided to tackle it head on. It all started with hypnosis and body work. Transforming your thoughts, giving yourself a little self-love everyday and nurturing yourself is the secret to creating your abundance and prosperity. And once you have it and you feel it in your heart, no one can take it from you. That is why I have a blue butterfly on my shoulder. It is because no one can take my evolution away from me. This transformation was all mine. I worked my ass off for it and a beautiful butterfly emerged.

    This past month when I began giving free hypnosis, the truth resonated even deeper in my soul. I could hear the pain in my clients voice. Their sadness, fear and worry taking over their lives. I realized that I needed to finish my transformation and own it. I needed to be the one to support these amazing women and men in their transformation. And guess what emerged when I did. Clients that felt energized, joyful and happy after hypnosis. Clients that felt empowered to take on their life and create the life they desire. The most crucial part of this evolution is making the investment for yourself and owning this as your path. To facilitate this process for my clients I created a 6 week course to begin their transformation. Let’s all become butterflies in our lives. Let’s emerge in our full abundance and prosperity.

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    Hypnosis helped me Change!

    Hypnosis had been on my mind for years but I was too scared to take the leap. I was afraid of what I was hiding. I was afraid of the secrets that were trapped. I was scared to find out what my true purpose was. I was absolutely scared enough to literally shit my pants. I was hiding inside a deep cavern inside my body. I was freaked out at what I would find. But along came my Sunshine. Luly B. If you don’t know this amazing, courageous, spontaneous, caring and supportive friend. Then I urge you to find out who she is and do it. I had known of her since Kindergarten. She was the girl with the big voice. She was the lion. I was the sheep. I was too scared and afraid to walk up to her. It took me 35 years to work up the courage but I did it. I signed up for Spark last April. Ladies, If you haven’t gone to spark then you are missing out. I absolutely understand the excuses. I can’t take PTO. I can’t leave the kids with grandma. I can’t take an entire day for myself. That was hard shit for me too. I never took time off. I felt guilty for staying late at work and not picking up my kids. But you know what I realized I deserved it. I decided one April morning to sign up for Sip and Spark. I wanted to actually shake her hand and talk to Luly B. In my head it was, “THE LULY B.” That girl is on fire. If i could just get an ounce of that fire. I worked up a little spark and took a leap. I went to her Sip & Spark event.  She greeted me with a hug and kiss at the door. She remembered me. She actually knew who I was. It was unbelievable to me that this amazing women that had always intimidated me. This amazingly strong woman knew me. I found out later that it was a hard time for her those months we met. She never appeared to be scared or afraid. She was amazing and bright no matter what. She rocked it at spark. So much so that I pulled out my credit card and paid for the Superwoman Retreat. That was hard as hell for me to say “no matter what I am buying this and going to this retreat. I need this.” Pay for myself to have an entire weekend about me. I mean who does that? Now, I say “Why the fuck not? Why not invest in yourself?” We spend so much time taking care of those around us and we forget ourselves. Over this past year I have learned to love and appreciate myself for who I am. To love myself with all my flaws. To accept myself for the amazing, hardworking, mom, daughter and wife. To appreciate myself for all the good I give to the world. Because you know what. If you don’t care for yourself no one else will. If you don’t love yourself no one else will. If you don’t STAND UP AND SHOUT I DESERVE THIS then you will never get it. So I went to the Superwoman Retreat. I met some amazing women that have supported my transformation. I focused on myself and my purpose in life. I met Adrianna Foster my Moon. She is no ordinary hypnotherapist. She is an awesome mom, exceptional inspirational singer and friend. She is the hypnotherapist that unlocked my mind. She gave me the tools to dig deep and reveal the secrets and lies that were holding me back. I worked hard. It was a struggle but nothing worth living for is ever easy. Raising a child is not easy. Growing up is not easy. I had my ups and downs. My wins and my losses but with each one I dusted myself off and kept going. It took a long grueling 6 months but I did it. I took classes, listened to podcasts, You-tube videos and webinars. I did anything that resonated with my soul. Getting my voice back was not easy. Then I met Sheena. This was exactly what I needed and the universe brought us together. You see each of these women and come up in my life several times but taking the leap was not easy for me. Picking up the phone and calling a stranger was impossible. Speaking up for what I want took more than what I had at the time. So the universe literally placed her in the exact place I was with Luly B. I met Sheen and we connected instantly. I told her that I had know about her for a while and want to become a hypnotherapist. Oh shit yes, the words came out of my mouth. We talked and once again I took another huge leap. I invested in the education I knew I needed to help more people. It was hard as crap to spend this money I didn’t have. I didn’t have the courage to tell my husband about it. But I did. I said it, I paid for it and I waited. This has been the most fantastic weekend. Yes it has been hard. I’m on day 6 of 14 straight days of work. But I’m doing something that lights up my soul. I’m connecting with people and helping them find their truth, their path and their future. That is what hypnosis did for me. Hypnosis gave me my voice. It gave me the voice that I had deep down inside. It emerged my goddess from her deep dark hole. I am shinning bright now. I am offering hypnosis for FREE for a limited time. I invite you to a Discovery Call with me. You have nothing to lose.

    Categories Anxiety, Emotional pain, hope, motivation, pain, Physical Pain, Transformation

    The truth…

    Transformation to unveil your true self is painful. The truth about change is it takes hard work and perseverance. Nothing worth achieving is ever easy. Changing a career isn’t easy. Having and raising children isn’t easy. Finding your true purpose in life is the battle of a lifetime. It unveils your true abundance and fortitude to pave the way for the power of creativity. Your future is waiting for you to expose your truth and transform your beliefs to develop your ultimate potential.

    Trust me I never thought it was possible to transform my feelings and beliefs. Working on emotional stress, anxiety and panic was the last thing on my list to resolve. Finally, last year I decided hypnosis was my answer and took a leap. I connected in a true spiritual and emotional way with my guide, Adrianna Foster. The universe brought her to me at the perfect time. I was ready to make the last change for my abundance to flourish. The journey had obstacles, resistance and pain but each step made me stronger. The journey is far from over but I am now aware of each part of the process.

    Yesterday was a day of pain, sadness and anxiety but living in the moment transforms the future. Taking time for myself and honoring my feelings helped me transmute the lies into truth. Each time this blocks arise a tough time unfolds but it is followed by a glorious day of enlightenment. I am thankful for my pain because it unleashed my true purpose in life. It created my deep connection with others. My unique gift creates a bond to help my clients heal their pain and sorrow in the physical and emotional realm. The best therapists and caregivers are those that truly understand the pain their clients feel. They have lived and experience the pain. That is the fact that sets me apart from the rest. I have a unique gift to understand both physical and emotional pain. I worked on healing both and learned the power in the process. The physical pain was the easiest for me. The physical journey was easy but lengthy. It unraveled over 6 years to develop the perfect plan. My healthcare background helped me identify the specific human needs to focus and support (nutrition, supplementation and fitness). The emotional journey was rapid and difficult. It is the finally step in my journey to abundance. The emotional journey started in Sept 2018 and has enlightened me revealing the power in my story.

    I am grateful for the opportunity to use my gift using transformational regressions to help others achieve their super powers. And I am excited that my journey to becoming a hypnotherapist is underway. So I ask you… Would you be willing to dig deep and unlock the past that is haunting you? Are you willing to feel the pain and unveil your true self? Are you willing to connect with yourself – mind, body and soul? That is the journey that unlocks your abundance. I am here to guide you…

    Categories Diet, Elimination Diet, flare up, food allergies, food sensitivities, Irritable Bowel Syndrome

    IBS Flare ups

    IBS can be triggeres by stress, anxiety and food sensitivity. My flare up this week is one in a trail of many. I have had issues since Valentine’s day. Learning your body and understanding the impact stress and food plays on your digestion is important. My body is calling for a cleanse. I have been having pain on the right side under my rib for weeks sporadicly. I don’t have a gallbladder which the typical reason for this pain. My chronic digestive issues helped me learn exactly what I need to do to change the game. I am ready for a full dietary cleanse to detox my liver. I know with my history cleansing helps detox the body, remove stones, sludge and inflammation in the liver ducts. Trust me I don’t love cleansing. But feeling better is always my priority. I am currently on the oatmeal diet with Kombucha. It’s the only thing that I tolerate when my stomach looks like I’m 6 months pregnant. This phase lasts a few days. Then I move onto vegan diet for the rest of the week. The final part is a liquid diet and epson salt cleanse. That is the hardest part. But you feel fabulous after. I know that my body is changing and new foods are becoming a problem. Steak is not my friend anymore. I wake up with sharp pains after I eat red meat. This cleanse will help me eliminate toxins and begin introducing foods back into my routine. The process is slow but critical to identify food sensitivities. This will help me identify other vegetables, fruits and proteins that cause symptoms. I’m on a journey to heal my body and it takes time to reverse the damage that occurs over our lifetime. Knowledge is power and learning your body is crucial to wellness.

    Categories flare up, pain, Stop Bloat

    IBS and Stress

    Irritable Bowel Syndrome sucks when it flares up. You feel like you have a giant balloon in your stomach. You feel like a whale waiting to explode. The cramps can vary in duration and location. The pain can be generalized or localized to one area in your abdomen. The truth is IBS can be triggered by stress and many other variables. I had a flare up this week and it all started with a prescription for an injury. I had forgotten that sometimes prescriptions are laced with corn starch. I am extremely sensitive to any corn product and the problem only got worse from there. I went to bed that night feeling bloated a few hours after taking Flexeril. It was a week out of the norm with a ton of work to due and added stress. I was appearing on my first ever TV appearance. It was exciting and nerve racking all at the same time. If you have IBS then you understand that any added stress on a tummy that is already acting up is a volcano waiting to erupt. I woke up every morning this week feeling bloated and filled with gas. I had some cramping but it wasn’t too bad. My usual routine when IBS flares is oatmeal and brown sugar for a few meals until everything settles. I also drink Kombucha to help build my probiotics and get the excess gas out. The day of the show I woke up in pain and bloated. This was definitely stress related, I know because I usually have presentation anxiety with stomach ache. That was a pattern for me most of my life since childhood. Thankfully meditation and relaxation brought the bloat down before the show. I desperately wanted it to disappear so I could wear my red dress. It did and the show went well, nerves and all. That night I ate a delicious fish and lobster dinner. I went to sleep fine but woke up a few times thinking about my TV appearance and things I wanted to do better. And of course, I woke up bloated. An added issue to my flare up was my daily Aloe for autoimmune disease had run out a week ago. Stress + corn + no aloe was a bad mix for me. Today, I woke up feeling like a whale with sharp pain on my right side (liver and gallbladder). I knew that if I wanted to get better my diet needed to be simple and I needed a little help. Listening to your body is the key to staying healthy. I knew it was time for acupuncture so I reached out to a few friends. Thankfully one was working and I was able to see her. I could feel my intestines jumping and moving during the session. The bloat and pain took a little while to relieve but now I am much better. I definitely learned to monitor my aloe medication, read my prescriptions and keep my diet bland when I need it. If you have IBS learning your body and being prepared is essential. Thank you Michelle for taking care of me today. I am thankful for having a variety of friends to help me tackle my flare ups.

    Categories Transformation

    Hospital Fears

    I am a nurse. SO this fear is insane right. Nope I actually had a fear of Hospitals as a child. That was a huge reason for me to become a nurse. Obstacles always came in my way but I eventually got to my calling. I was the little girl with bruises and bandaids everywhere. I loved when my Daddy cleaned up my wounds and patched me up. I loved to wear those bandaids with pride. My little son is the same way with bandaids. Its freaky how similar we are. I used to swear he had my husbands temperament but oh boy he is stubborn just like me. Well back to my fear of hospitals. I remember two experiences visiting MCH. Yep I refuse to call it anything else. My first memory was around 5 years of age. My parents were traveling and Abuela Chelo was babysitting. She was amazing, my favorite grandma, she was sweet and gentle. Everyone loved her she always had a smile on her face. I loved my other grandma too but she wasn’t very happy. She always had a sad. I realize now that she was in a lot of pain. I know because I lived that same pain for 20+ years. My pain began at 5 years and continued until 2 years ago. My grandma Blanca was the same way. Maybe that is why I only remember a frown on her face. She was not very nice to my mommy either. That wasn’t cool and I knew it even as a little girl. The crazy thing is that I had forgotten all these memories until this month. Now after my TV appearance in my red dress everything unraveled. I remembered the details so clearly. Things that had been hidden in a red room inside my head. My memories were locked away from me. I realize now that I was one of those kids that felt the pain of others. I know this now because I see it in my son. The days I am sad or upset his moods change too. He cuddles more when I need it. He knows when I am happy or sad. That was me the little girl that felt the pain of others and tried to heal them. I had trouble falling asleep and woke up in the middle of the night to walk to my parents room. I would often roll down the stairs and get banged up in the middle of the night. I was a little clumsy and sleepy only made it worse. But I did the same thing my little guy does in the middle of the night when he roams into mommy’s side of the bed. I would wake up and go to my parents room. Now, the question is why did I go? Which side did I choose? I’m not really sure but the memories are coming back. We will see what comes next. Now, hospital fears. Back to the bad hospital experience for me. I was in the front bathroom of the house trying to pee. But nothing would come out, there was a fire and I was screaming. My brother, sister and grandma came to help me. They poured water and turned on the sink. Nothing was happening and I was screaming. They had no choice but head to the hospital. I remember laying on a cold hospital bed being held down with lights in my face. Then the pushed something inside me and suddenly I peed. It was painful but relieving. It was a pleasurable pain to finally release the urine that was tormenting my mind. Its the sensation you get when you held your urine way too long and finally get to go. The second memory, my brother was my protector. I was in midterm exams at St. Agatha. My stomach was killing me. It was cramping and I kept running to the bathroom. I had horrible colic and diarrhea. I was always freaked out for exams. My stomach was a wreck. I had a fear of testing and standardized testing was even worse. But this day was the worst ever. There was one teacher I absolutely loved. She was the sweetest thing in the world always had a smile on her face. She took care of me that day and called my parents. She calmed me down and told me there was nothing to worry about, “I will let you take the test.” I knew everything was going to ok. She was my favorite, but I can’t remember her name. My mom picked me up and took me to MCH. I remember my brother was there with me. The took me to get a barium enema. I know now that was the procedure but back then I was pissed. I knew they had shoved a tube up my butt and made me scream in excruciating pain. My brother was banging on the door, “let me in.” He got in and I was running to the bathroom holding my butt cheeks. It didn’t work the barium poured out of me all over the floor. I was in horrible pain and obviously super constipated. I remember I was safe again when my brother came in. He protected me and cared for his surprise little sister. I was an oops 9 years younger than my brother. Interesting thing is that my big debut on TV landed on his 50th Birthday. Yep my Big Brother was born on Valentine’s Day. I will never forget his 50th birthday. I was absolutely freaking out just like that little girl. My tummy was a mess yesterday and today. I woke up bloated both days. There are a bunch of other variables that played a role but stress was the biggest one. But the best part is that I experienced my fear and I felt the pain from the stress. The stress is gone now and the pain is too. Learning your body and its reaction to stress is my gift. This mountain I climbed yesterday was a fear that I stomped on. I was nervous and shaking inside my body but I did it. I sucked up all my fears and did it. So my childhood fears of hospitals never stopped me from becoming a nurse. My childhood fears didn’t stop me from getting on You-Tube. They didn’t even stop me from appearing on TV. I am out of the red room and I am free. Come join me in freedom. It is truly a bright light and a glow in your life. Let it go!!!!! I can help you….

    Categories Uncategorized

    Pelvic Floor Muscles

    The pelvic floor muscles are essential to reduce stress, anxiety and tension. I didn’t realize this until my libido came back. It was a process of feeding my body right, focusing on supplementation and fitness but I fought back and won. I had lived with low libido for most of my marriage. It dropped off sometime after the honeymoon. I wanted to be interested in sex but I just was too sick to care. I always felt awful and libido goes with that. If you don’t feel happy, healthy and alive, its hard to be motivated for sex. Well once I felt better and the motivation came. I began to learn my pelvic floor muscles, the female anatomy and how the body works. Female symptoms of urinary incontinence, prolapse uterus and overactive bladder are no joke. Tomorrow, I am live on All Health TV talking about this very issue. I teach women how to regain muscle tone, enhance libido and reconnect with themselves mind-body-soul. There is nothing better than a Happy Wife. Happy Wife, Happy Life!!! Watch Replay at 9pm EST.